
I've been critical and many times overly critical (I think with everybody, really).
And I've been a bully and not considerate at all.
I wonder sometimes why I act this way. I think I want to feel significant. If I were right about everything - if I could convince others of my way of thinking, if I could know something that another did not - that would give me value, and I could feel better about myself.
I see how hurtful that behavior is. I regret hurting so many, and I'm sorry for the pain I've caused.
I'm also beginning to see from my own life that being told we're evil, being scolded, being corrected, being bullied by someone else's standard, doesn't mean we deserve it and doesn't make it so.
God is the only authority capable of really making us into what we aren't, and He has already said we are forgiven, justified, redeemed, good - perfect in His sight. His mind is made up. It's decided. It is finished.
Now that I know my value comes from God - simply because He says so (with no work or effort on my part) - I don't have to strive for my significance or value any longer and I do not have to be right and I do not have to be critical and I do not have to bully anyone and I can consider others more than myself now (instead of making sure I get noticed and I feel good - because God already notices me and makes me feel good).
I want God's judgment to continue to override mine in every area of my life so I never have to go down this path again.